goodbye 2012.

hard to believe this year is over!  oh, 2012, you were an interesting one.  it was a so so year for me, there was good and not so good.

it was a year of emotions for me, personal lows, with new feelings of depression and anxiety to deal with.  there was a death of a grandparent and beloved pet.  the illness of a dear friend, and trying to support her through her new life journey.

but in the grand scheme of things, it wasn't too bad, it could have been much worse.  i have to remember that.  while internally struggling, i remember that there were many good things to out do the not so good.

but the good, there was good.  there were 2 disney trips (although, i can't remember much of the first one, i know it was still fun, guess i was preoccupied without realizing), one trip in february to run the princess half at walt disney world, the other in september (one of my most favorites from 2012 was this trip/race) to run the disneyland half and earn my coast to coast medal as well out on the west coast and to have my aunt/mom/dad there to share in it all.  watching my niece grow and continue to crack me up all the time. outings with my bff and some good therapy time talking life out with her.  my dog and her silly antics, and cuddles at night.  getting to know a few new cats, and later, a new rescued dog. appreciating life, no matter what i feel like and appreciating what i have.  it was the half marathong year; running 4 half marathons which is the most i have ever done thus far in one calendar year, earning a new pr at one of them, as well as a "disney pr" at another .  after feeling burnt out, getting the new zest for running after the DL half, racing with my brother and watching him enjoy running too, running a race with my niece who just loves to run with me, and time spent with loved ones, good health, and some fun little road trips.

2012 was an interesting year.  and while i still am dealing with how i have been feeling lately/this year, i get up each day and just try.  hopefully 2013, will be kind.  i do have a lot of good things to look back on, and i try to focus on that.  and i am reminded to smile, which i try to do, no matter what.  i remind myself it is a good day, when you wake up to face it.

and also, i am still getting used to writing 2012.  and now i have to get used to '13.  oh boy.